Wednesday, 2 November 2016

The Inner World Of A Fan


Do you believe in destiny?



Eighteen years ago, a certain family was watching this movie called Dil To Pagal Hai in a packed house with this little four-year-old of theirs. Every now and then, he would stand up on his seat during the movie opening his arms, much to the disapproval of the people sitting behind him. Was it destiny that this single screen was named Rahul?

I still remember that day. After the movie, when we were out by the road, and the elders were busy deciding something, I walked to the middle of the street and stood there with my arms spread wide out-- the same Rahul pose, looking at the poster of the film, and then at my mom; and I swear I remember the twinkling in her eyes. Of course, I had a nice one from her later for running in the middle of the road, but I won’t forget telling everyone at school for the entire next week that my name was Rahul.

But what I treasure the most is this memory of a ten-year-old me having the house to myself on a warm, lazy Sunday, and accidentally coming across this documentary about SRK on TV. I guess it was Star Plus. (Thank you Star Plus, or whichever TV channel that was)

I didn’t know who Anupama Chopra was and I didn’t know what BBC was, but I knew Shah Rukh Khan, and that was enough. So I watched both the parts of that documentary, the Inner World and Outer World of Shah Rukh Khan. And my life was never the same. I smiled as he celebrated Diwali and Eid and Christmas at his Mannat, and as his kids recited the Gayatri Mantra and offered Namaz; I welled up as he talked about his parents, I sobbed as he talked about the time in Mumbai when he had to spend the night by the road.

And I smiled from ear to ear while my eyes were still shedding warm water, as he talked about the time he was so angry, so frustrated that he stood across the Oberoi hotel and shouted, “one day, I’ll own this city.”

That has been the story. Loving Shah Rukh Khan is all about smiling from ear to ear, while being swamped in tears. I go to watch his movies to feel the warmth, to relive one of the biggest success stories ever, to believe that dreams do come true.

Most people ridicule fans. And most times, they are right when you look at it rationally. Fans, like me, are stupid. Their entire foundation of happiness and sorrow depends on some person they’ll probably never meet. They love that someone probably more than they’ll love the people around them in their everyday life. But that’s the thing: fans may be stupid, their love isn’t.

How else do you describe a kid watching interviews of a movie-star so that he has someone to look up to? How else do you explain a teenager watching the same documentary about the inner life of a movie-star over and over again, because he needed fatherly advice? Whatever I have learnt about love and life and everything else, I owe most of it to Shah Rukh Khan. He is portraying a life coach in Dear Zindagi, but then that’s what he has been for me and millions of others around the globe: a life coach.



They call him the biggest movie star in the world. But for me, he’s something even bigger: the man who taught me all about love, all about life; about how precious parents are, about how wonderful kids are, about how important family is. The man who isn’t afraid to take risks, who has the courage to stand alone, and who is the living example that dreams can come true, however big they are. Thank you for making me dream, for making me love, for teaching me everything you have just by being you, on-screen and off-screen; thank you for existing Shah Rukh Khan.

Sometimes, I look back at the four-year-old watching the Dil To Pagal Hai poster outside the cinema hall, trying to emulate this movie-star, and wonder how that tiny action in that tiny moment changed my life forever.



I ask again, do you believe in destiny?

I don’t know. I believe in Shah Rukh Khan.

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